So another yo-yo day. Feelings of intense happiness followed by deep deep despair and sorrow. Memories of painful incidents whose scars are so deep that the pain is just strong today as it was then. Forgiveness may be the way to true healing but it is incapable of erasing the memory. In an instant you back there experiencing it all over again. Re-living the pain and trauma.

So up at 7am after going to sleep at 3am. Sat down at laptop and been there till now at 18:47. Am exhausted. Been listening to sad songs on Spotify. Now feeling sad. A whole list of things all I know is I'm tired of it. 

 So after nearly a decade I felt compelled to start 'blogging' again. Primarily to put down on 'paper' my thoughts. I've kept a diary for nearly 20 years but fell out of love with writing and they are sat gathering dust in a drawer.